Origin

Origin

 Origin Lyrics

Tidal Waves of Light

Twisted perception lead me to believe
I’ll never be good enough
For anyone but me
And I don’t matter
Sitting here alone again
Blood red pen
Writing down the anguish
With invisible friends
It’s forgiveness
But lust for vengeance still tugs at me
Strength not weakness
It takes to walk paths traveled by the meek
Traveled by the meek
I need you to know need you to understand
The love in your heart could conquer
The darkness and evil that’s inside of me
I needed you to know
Need you to know…
I’d rather be left alone
Oh can’t you see it’s not that bad here unmolested
The deepest sea
Hides my leviathan
Behold!
He rises
It’s forgiveness
But lust for vengeance still tugs at me
Strength not weakness
It takes to walk paths traveled by the meek
Traveled by the meek
You forgot to pick up the pieces
After you tore me apart
And now there’s one thing
I need you to know need you to understand
The love in your heart could conquer
The darkness and evil that’s inside of me
I needed you to know
Need you to know…

Avalon

All for the hope,
What was may be again.
I raise the Chalice, to my lips.
One last look,
Into her crystal eyes then turn.
All these years I’d never dreamed she’d kept it safe here with her.
I forgive you noble queen,
But now I must away.
Be the man I was,
To lead my men again.
Son of incest,
Sister of sin,
I go to finish,
What you began.
Where are you now, my wisest friend?
I am with you in your dreams, until the end.
A dream to some,
A nightmare to others.
A dawning’s mist,
Upon the field.
My time is done.
Now go to finish yours.
Take your place as king,
Once more and ride again.
The dogs of war,
And mercenaries,
Amidst the mist we use the old ways.
Fallen friend,
And vanquished foe,
Until at last the field is quiet.
All is done.
Take the sword of kings,
Cast it in the lake,
Another king shall come.
One last look, into her crystal eyes,
I burn.
Remember I loved you always,
I will be waiting for you- upon a ship of gold-
To Avalon, they’ve come to take my soul.
I will be waiting.
And so it comes.
What was may be again.
I raise the Chalice, to my lips.
One last look,
Into her crystal eyes then turn.
All these years I’d never dreamed she’d kept it safe here with her.
I forgive you noble queen,
But now I must away.
Be the man I was,
To lead my men again.
Son of incest,
Sister of sin,
I go to finish,
What you began.
Where are you now, my wisest friend?
I am with you in your dreams, until the end.
A dream to some,
A nightmare to others.
A dawning’s mist,
Upon the field.
My time is done.
Now go to finish yours.
Take your place as king,
Once more and ride again.
The dogs of war,
And mercenaries,
Amidst the mist we use the old ways.
Fallen friend,
And vanquished foe,
Until at last the field is quiet.
All is done.
Take the sword of kings,
Cast it in the lake,
Another king shall come.
One last look, into her crystal eyes,
I burn.
Remember I loved you always,
I will be waiting for you- upon a ship of gold-
To Avalon, they’ve come to take my soul.
I will be waiting.
And so it comes.

Separate Lives

Sorrow deep within
Without reason beacons me inside
Tenements with dirty walls
Linked by straining halls
Of doubt and fear
Wondering in bleakness
Searching for a peace I cannot find
Did not want this
But it was here within me
Before the seed were sown
A subtle root had grown
To the core of my being
To grip my reason
Searching for an ending to begin away from what I was
Separation from this emptiness
And all throughout I hope I pray
I have no choice to stay
My soul awaits this rising moment for my dreams to be
Fall away from all this pain inside of me
All my fears born before me
To take or be taken
And I have seen this once before
In my worst dreams of fear
Do you have a place to run to hide to?
I have none
What has this left me?
In torment
Crashing through the bottom into numbness
Cold impending
Now my time to realize…ending
Happiness was a fleeting thing bound to leave with childhood
Cloud tinged horizons
But what life was left in me could have harvested to see
If I did not reject
But sunlight fell through dirty curtains
Roses thrown in pools of filth
These things were my crime
Come into I feel your fire
Just as I cannot fell mine
Come into and make me whole again
Before I collapse upon myself
If I said I would not drain you
Would you let me in to taste you?
There is nothing left inside
At least nothing I can find alone
Coming to realize that I must change my ways
No reason
No purpose
Leads nowhere
For nothing
Through the midst of all my sorrow
Through the midst of unbound pain
I must to learn to hope again
I must to be me

Virgin Moments Left Undone

Half unwoven golden threads in tapestries of memory,
Finished, but undone, does one remain forever haunted?
How do I make sense of senseless treasures- wisps of beauty floating,
Coming up to nothing, but their silent culmination
-manifested-
Gazed upon and scattered, scattered to the winds.
My god, my kingdom for a reason,
As the reasons fade and fall.
Virgin-moment-garden.
Winds, you lay them waste,
And leave the moments bare.
But still the echo of a dream that died reverberates,
Through the dark expanses of my sleep and glare of my waking hours.
A stain of hope,
Spilt across the floor where I have come to lie.
She will not die,
She is forever,
So am I.
Mother prepare a place for me,
I am coming home.
Father deliver me.
Once more beautiful,
The saddest thing to say.
They cry behind their eyes,
Years of flood cover them.
It needn’t be this way.
Mother prepare a place for me,
I am coming home.
Father deliver me.

For Endless Fields

I’ve watched you in the blue glow
Too many times
Two thirds disgusted
One third glued in fascination
And I’ll admit that I’ve wondered what the fruits that you spill and drown in
Would taste like upon my lips
But where the look is more important than the stand
I want you part of it
Skin deep philosophy
Pastel and stale as hell
High-def picture perfect
Trying to sell me something that I’d have to sacrifice myself to live up to
Damn you
I gave you all of this power
Let you into my home to taste disgrace upon my lips
Turn you off
Shut you down
Back in your place
Skin deep philosophy
I want more
Every movement is hijacked by fashion, pettiness and trend
So someone can pretend
That if the spend
They will be better off than you and I
Better off than you and I
Skin deep philosophy
Love what you love
Procure what you want, what you want
But don’t buy in.

The Leaving

I’m drifting further, and further, and further away
You’ve lost your faith in me, there’s nothing to say
I took it personally
Like anything that I love
How could it be some other?
How could it not break my heart?
And push me further, and further, and further away
And this is just a cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored
Another cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored again
Pushing me further, and further, and further away
You’ve lost your faith in me and me in you
There’s nothing to say
I took it personally
It tore a hole in my heart
And I want this pain to end
But I don’t know where to start
And I just wanted to care
But now I don’t give a…
Pushing me further, and further, and further away
And this is just a cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored
Another cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored again
And again….and again….and again…
Everything that was there to hold me to the course
I find leaving again
All the happy endings I might find
I find leaving again
All the happy endings I might dream
Or foster in imagining
Seem so far away
And I’m ashamed of what I have to show
Finding the more that I look, the more I find
And no one can say but me
Never again
No…..
Everything that was there to hold me to the course
I find leaving again
All the happy endings I might find
Lost in the noise again
And again

 

Malkuth

After all the days are gone,
Darkness netherworld rules the day.
Equilibrium’s a forgotten friend,
Come pagan warriors with strength to make a change!
Crawl out of the pit, of lack of mortal pleasure.
I’ve found my light again,
Come to me my friends!
Unite my brothers,
I have waited here so long to find you.
Sweet sisters,
Bind the ties with your embrace.
Throughout past years there’ve been times when I felt like fuckin’ shit.
Your love, it gives me strength to live again.
Spit in the face of all the gods,
You know they would destroy us.
I would die for those who walk alone with me.
Pack up your wretched souls,
Go back to hell you can’t destroy us- not with fire or Ice.
Behind closed doors,
Lie wolfs in human skin.
Did they reach their claws inside your mind?
And take your dreams away?
Sweet memory- Still remain-
Though the memory dies,
The dream, it still remains-
A plastic shell of me…
No more fire and Ice.