The Twisted Fall

The Twisted Fall

 The Twisted Fall Lyrics

Need To Know

Twisted perception lead me to believe
I’ll never be good enough
For anyone but me
And I don’t matter
Sitting here alone again
Blood red pen
Writing down the anguish
With invisible friends
It’s forgiveness
But lust for vengeance still tugs at me
Strength not weakness
It takes to walk paths traveled by the meek
Traveled by the meek
I need you to know need you to understand
The love in your heart could conquer
The darkness and evil that’s inside of me
I needed you to know
Need you to know…
I’d rather be left alone
Oh can’t you see it’s not that bad here unmolested
The deepest sea
Hides my leviathan
Behold!
He rises
It’s forgiveness
But lust for vengeance still tugs at me
Strength not weakness
It takes to walk paths traveled by the meek
Traveled by the meek
You forgot to pick up the pieces
After you tore me apart
And now there’s one thing
I need you to know need you to understand
The love in your heart could conquer
The darkness and evil that’s inside of me
I needed you to know
Need you to know…

Dancing While I Die

What matter of man am I?
To contemplate the plans of my demise
I should have known
The risk I took
If you ever left me alone
What matter of man?
I had so much to give
Now I’ll share it with you on the ceilings the walls and the floor
Like a five year old with a cool aid smile
My crescent moon for a head
What matter of man?
I sit here alone
By a now red phone
But I’m no longer waiting for your call
I think you’ll find
When you get home
I’m lost for words but at least I left a note
Sorry for the mess
Now I guess you’ll see the parts of me you know best
I had so much to give
Now I’ll share it with you on the ceilings the walls and the floor
I tried to call
But you weren’t home
You have better things to do while I’m alone
I guess we’ll never
We’ll never know
What could have been if you’d picked up the phone
But you’re not home
What matter of man?
I had so much to give
Now I’ll share it with you on the ceilings the walls and the floors
Like a five year old with a cool aid smile
My crescent moon for a head
What matter of man?

In Torment

Sorrow deep within
Without reason beacons me inside
Tenements with dirty walls
Linked by straining halls
Of doubt and fear
Wondering in bleakness
Searching for a peace I cannot find
Did not want this
But it was here within me
Before the seed were sown
A subtle root had grown
To the core of my being
To grip my reason
Searching for an ending to begin away from what I was
Separation from this emptiness
And all throughout I hope I pray
I have no choice to stay
My soul awaits this rising moment for my dreams to be
Fall away from all this pain inside of me
All my fears born before me
To take or be taken
And I have seen this once before
In my worst dreams of fear
Do you have a place to run to hide to?
I have none
What has this left me?
In torment
Crashing through the bottom into numbness
Cold impending
Now my time to realize…ending
Happiness was a fleeting thing bound to leave with childhood
Cloud tinged horizons
But what life was left in me could have harvested to see
If I did not reject
But sunlight fell through dirty curtains
Roses thrown in pools of filth
These things were my crime
Come into I feel your fire
Just as I cannot fell mine
Come into and make me whole again
Before I collapse upon myself
If I said I would not drain you
Would you let me in to taste you?
There is nothing left inside
At least nothing I can find alone
Coming to realize that I must change my ways
No reason
No purpose
Leads nowhere
For nothing
Through the midst of all my sorrow
Through the midst of unbound pain
I must to learn to hope again
I must to be me

Omage

The sacred bonds we forged
Together you and I
When no one left early
Harsh judgements not yet cast
Could create life so full
But instead tend to fade when we don’t keep them
In conversation
We almost found it
The halls of Elysium
Only to find it all begins again
It’s only just like…
The sacred truths we found
Together you and I
The revelations we
Discovered over time
Could save us any day
But instead tend to fade when we don’t keep them
In conversation
We almost found it
The halls of Elysium
Only to find it all begins again
It’s only just like life
I recall…
Days and nights…
Closer to free
And singing out
For all the world to see
The circle
Divided
It lies in
The fragments
Oh bring us
Together
To raise us above this divide.

Skin Deep Philosophy

I’ve watched you in the blue glow
Too many times
Two thirds disgusted
One third glued in fascination
And I’ll admit that I’ve wondered what the fruits that you spill and drown in
Would taste like upon my lips
But where the look is more important than the stand
I want you part of it
Skin deep philosophy
Pastel and stale as hell
High-def picture perfect
Trying to sell me something that I’d have to sacrifice myself to live up to
Damn you
I gave you all of this power
Let you into my home to taste disgrace upon my lips
Turn you off
Shut you down
Back in your place
Skin deep philosophy
I want more
Every movement is hijacked by fashion, pettiness and trend
So someone can pretend
That if the spend
They will be better off than you and I
Better off than you and I
Skin deep philosophy
Love what you love
Procure what you want, what you want
But don’t buy in.

The Drift

I’m drifting further, and further, and further away
You’ve lost your faith in me, there’s nothing to say
I took it personally
Like anything that I love
How could it be some other?
How could it not break my heart?
And push me further, and further, and further away
And this is just a cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored
Another cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored again
Pushing me further, and further, and further away
You’ve lost your faith in me and me in you
There’s nothing to say
I took it personally
It tore a hole in my heart
And I want this pain to end
But I don’t know where to start
And I just wanted to care
But now I don’t give a…
Pushing me further, and further, and further away
And this is just a cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored
Another cry for help
Loud and clear
Lost in the noise
While ignored again
And again….and again….and again…
Everything that was there to hold me to the course
I find leaving again
All the happy endings I might find
I find leaving again
All the happy endings I might dream
Or foster in imagining
Seem so far away
And I’m ashamed of what I have to show
Finding the more that I look, the more I find
And no one can say but me
Never again
No…..
Everything that was there to hold me to the course
I find leaving again
All the happy endings I might find
Lost in the noise again
And again

 

Theme of Circles

Long live the fighters!
Close the circle before we fade
Before the bonds wither away…
Clear the Space for the task at hand
To leave in the past
All the pain that has frozen us shut
Let no shadows be cast
On the celebration
With faith in the days to come
The shadows will be cast away

The Twisted Fall

Now I see
The cause, the cure, there’s nothing here but me
Again, another landslide
In my deepest dreams
I’ve seen the path left behind
The man I am to be
The man I am to be
In my deepest dreams
I’ve seen the path left behind
And now
To throw the dice and hope this will not be
This fact
Keeps spinning my hope back to lies, back to lies
That’s when I find that there’s a chance
One route to win
One turn I’m in
A life of love and hope left at my door
But suddenly I find
My heart can feel no more
In my deepest dreams
I’ve seen the path left behind
And now
To throw the dice and hope this will not be
This fact
Keeps spinning my hope back to lies, back to lies
That’s when I find that there’s a chance
One route to win
One turn I’m in
A life of love and hope left at my door
But suddenly I find
My heart
My heart
Now I see
The cause, the cure, there’s nothing here but me
Again, another landslide
To See
To look
To know
To find out you might not be what you’d thought
To leap
To fall short
Now who are you and what will you do?
Now I see
The cause, the cure, there’s nothing here but me
Again, another landslide
Again, again, again, again, again, again…
My heart can feel no more
Again, again, again
I can’t escape this reverie
Another landslide

Quasar

You
I’m talking to you
There’s nothing wrong with who you are
And you were caught in a landslide
Of stimulation and
Expectation that you cannot live up to
Deep down
You know
The sound of something wrong that’s moving through the ground
And shaking all you see
But your place
Is much bigger than the one you chose
And your face
Is touched by the hands of god
And your wings
Are white beneath the ashes that cover you
And the dust of every day.
You
I’m talking to you
There’s something wrong with how you feel
And you were caught in a landslide
Of stimulation and
Expectation that you cannot live up to
Deep down
You know
The sound of something wrong that’s moving through the ground
And shaking all you see
When your place
Is much bigger than the one you chose
And your face
Is touched by the hands of god
And your wings
Are white beneath the ashes that cover you
And the dust of every day.
Your place
Is much bigger than the one you chose
And your face
Is touched by the hands of god
And your wings
Are white beneath the ashes that cover you
And the dust of every day.

Home

My Love
I can’t imagine this world without you
And I know
I know you feel the same
So let’s hold on to this
Chase it in rings and rings
And dream of bigger and bigger and bigger things
A bridge of words will always bring us home
Despite the currents that carry away
When you say you love me
I fall into your eyes and I’m home again
You say you love me
I fall into your eyes and I’m home again
My love
I know sometimes we get in the way of ourselves
But time has proven the faith
That the distance is just a doorway
Waiting for us to enter
Cross the distance our hearts will hear each other sing
And bring us together in spite of everything
A bridge of words will always bring us home
Despite the currents that carry away
When you say you love me
I fall into your eyes and I’m home again
You say you love me
I fall into your eyes and I’m home again
Even if, even if, even if the sun doesn’t shine
It’s true
I’ll always choose you again
Even if the sky should fall
Even if we lose this all
Even if the rocks melt with the sun and slide into the sea
There would still be you and me.